How did I come from him?

So I called a certain someone to find out about getting a tune up for tomorrow which is (Election Day) and I had to sit and listen to someone go on to me about how he is not going to vote for a baby killer (like roe v wade could be overturned by McCain) and don't get me wrong I am not pro kill babies but I stand by rape and incest to "kill babies" and lets not forget that I was also told to go out and buy a gun for when all the N-words take over the world. This someone also went into Universal Healthcare and how we are not a socialist country and it could never be done. Soooo I ask the questions How did I come from him? and How is that teaching me a be a good human to love others and not judge? He himself is a baby killer cause I felt a small part of me die and since I was once a baby of this someone how how how does his blood run through my veins? THANK GOD I DIDNT BRING UP GAY MARRIAGE.


SO WITH ALL THAT BEING SAID I SAY GOOOOOO BARACK Prove him wrong!  At least my Vote will cancel his dumb ass!

Im just tired!

Yesterday I had to force myself to study and do all the things that I am being forced to do (like pointless didn't teach me anything lessons) and I'm just so tired. I am tired of my life as it were 30 years and nothing has been easy its always a struggle and frankly I'm tired of it. I still feel really off about the whole stepping away from a friendship that was bad anyway but there being no closure. I am tired of not getting to see the one thing that is easy in my life every day. School is wearing me down and this is only week six the best is yet to come. People around me with the exception of a few tire me out as well, its just too much of a waste of my time to try and hold onto relationships that are just not worth it. I will never sign up to do 12 hours of classes in one day again that's for sure. Please let something go easy for once oh yea and I'm definitely getting sick Happy happy joy joy.

Life as it were

I seem to spend each day attempting to figure it out! What did she mean by that? Why should I study psychology? Why does she always seem to get mad at me when other people in my life do not? How come Unemployment is so slow? Should I take a job that is an hour away and will pay me next to nothing and I will work for my gas? What should I have for dinner?

All these things go through my head on a regular basis and my brain is so tired from trying to figure it out. I am a spit in bucket away from thirty, starting over again in college and just so tired that I don't have much energy for anything.

Oh Furty Furty look who's Thirty

Looking Past Through to the other side

So things are coming up exciting things some things that make me nervous etc etc.

But I keep thinking about a day very soon and I keep asking myself one question. How do I meet someone and be myself if I already don't like them. Hmmmm and Ugghhhh

Other notes

I am designing the invitation for our engagement party which is exciting! Not sure how Nora will feel about it cause its kinda cute and corny but my fingers are crossed and we shall see.

My mom is going away for a week tom. mornin' and it will be nice to get a break I love her but she drives me a bit insane part of it is probably because I thought I would be back out on my own right now and I wish she could drive herself around things would be so much easier.

I think thats all I have for now be cool blog world

Tired Just Tired

So its been awhile sorry about that BFF LOL.

I am so worn out from back and forthness yes I just made up my own word. All week and some of last week I have been running back and forth to Unemployment trying to get through all the red tape and crazy crazy crazyness that they make you go through. On Monday I took the adult version of the SAT and did pretty well I thought I would totally bomb it well bomb the math part but I did ok! Shout out to those who helped me study or gave me words of encouragement and realize im not as dumb as I think I am :).
Yesterday I took assessment tests to determine what my career should be and really the only thing I got out of reading those papers was a chuckle about how I should probably control my temper at work cause I spend too much time telling off my bosses. How funny is that I am pretty layed back at work I get annoyed of course doesn't anyone but I can't remember a time I told off my boss. Today I must go back and meet with a counselor to try to figure out where to go to school and etc. that is at 11 then I have to be back there at 3 to take yup you guessed it another test.

Sorry that was all like one sentence I type how I think hahaha!

On another note I wish I still had medical benefits and was still seeing Andrea I really need it maybe I should call her and find out how much she will charge me per hour or maybe I will just see her Sunday which would be nice.

PS I will be at Sunday Out all day long helping out some friends sell stuff and will be heading to the constitution center at 1 ish to hear Matthew Sheppards Mom speak. Hope to run into people there. Ok time for a shower so I can head to Unemployment for the millionth time. Hey maybe they should give me a job there.

sweating sickness

So......

I have been slightly interested in the Tudors particularly Anne Boleyn so I am watching the Showtime show the Tudors and thinking I wonder how true to the real story it is....So as some things come up I look it up.

Currently the episode is about the title of my blog the breakout of the Sweating Sickness if you would like to learn about the horrible outbreak go here http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sweating_sickness and apparently Anne Boleyn was struck with the sweating sickness and was able to overcome it which was a shocking thing since people of this time got it and died a few hours later if you want to read about Anne go here http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Anne_Boleyn.

Anywho I wish I had some more history in school not that I would have payed attention but well yea oh well......

Played Powerball for tonight 230 million I would be ok with that although I dont know how much of it I would want to keep in my possesion having that much money screws people up I would def help out some friends buy a house and a loom for my girlfriend lol.

Crap its after 11 I should go check and see if anyone has won the jackpot make sure its not from some small bumblefuck town in mississippi I can't check the numbers since the ticket is in my car.

Back to the Tudors Whoppie!

The Backstaba's

The title of my blog doesnt mean much except I have that song in my head from the diner today in which I ate an undercooked grilled cheese and an overcooked crock of french onion soup but ah whatever can't expect le bec fin.

For the past few days I have been feeling really nervous about the whole I need to find a job or im screwed thing. I am tired of living without Nora's glistening eyes looking at me every morning when we first wake up or just hearing her say good morning and im also tired of feeling like I can't stand on my own two feet since I have been living back home for a year now....Yes I said a year it seems like just yesterday.

Ughh I have a headache

When I make it nice and fluffy im going to add the rest of my ingredients

So its Saturday mornin' and im watching cooking shows and of course the clock cause the countdown has begun before I must make my last walk to the box office for the end of the season and the end of my career at Rutgers. I have been sad since I was layed off but tonight will pull it all together and be the official end.

Part of me wants it to be over so that I can really move on with my life but I will miss everyone at Rutgers and as much as I complain I will miss the phone calls to ask me what they should do in certain situations cause im going to say it I still felt needed.

On another note my Aunt is coming for a visit. When I was younger I used to love it when she would come but she has now turned into a bitter old lady who complains about everything I mean everything and her son who thinks he is a profit will probably also be here and he is just creepy damn creepy oh and he is def not a profit I always meant to check and see if he was wearing black nike sneakers and getting ready to ingest something so that he can go to another planet and hang out on the clouds and write my grandmom letters that he knows she isnt the devil even though her birthday is on halloween but I digress.

I finished knitting the bag for my cousin with wonderful help from my love here is a pic




So even though I know that only one of my buddies will be reading this I thought she might enjoy this recipe from the show im watching of course.

Asparagus Lasagna Recipe courtesy Giada De Laurentiis See this recipe on air Saturday Feb. 23 at 12:00 PM ET/PT. Show: Everyday Italian Episode: Dining In, With Style

9 lasagna sheets, fresh or dried 1 teaspoon olive oil, plus 1 tablespoon, divided 2 (8.5-ounce) jars sun-dried tomatoes, drained 1 1/2 packed cups fresh basil leaves 1/2 cup grated Parmesan, plus 3/4 cup 1/4 pound pancetta, diced 1 medium onion, diced 2 garlic cloves, minced 4 bunches asparagus, trimmed and cut into 1-inch pieces 1 (15-ounce) container whole milk ricotta cheese 1 teaspoon salt 1/2 teaspoon freshly ground black pepper 2 cups shredded whole milk mozzarella cheese 2 tablespoons butterBring a large pot of salted water to a boil over high heat. Add 1 teaspoon olive oil. Add the pasta and cook until tender but still firm to the bite, stirring occasionally, about 8 to 10 minutes for dried pasta or 2 to 3 minutes for fresh pasta. Drain pasta. In a food processor combine the sun-dried tomatoes and basil. Pulse until the mixture is combined. Transfer to a small bowl. Stir in 1/2 cup Parmesan. Set aside. In a large skillet brown the pancetta until crisp. Remove from the pan using a slotted spoon. Add 1 tablespoon olive oil, onion, and garlic and cook until tender, about 4 minutes. Add asparagus and cook until tender, about 4 minutes. Transfer the mixture to a large bowl. Add the ricotta, salt, and pepper and stir to combine. Preheat the oven to 350 degrees F. In a 9 by 13-inch baking dish sprinkle some of the sun-dried tomato mixture on the bottom of the casserole dish. Place some lasagna sheets, then half asparagus mixture. Next sprinkle some mozzarella cheese and some of the remaining 3/4 cup Parmesan. Continue for 1 more layer. Top with lasagna sheets, some sun-dried tomato mixture, mozzarella, and Parmesan. Dot the top with butter. Bake until the ingredients are warm and the cheese is melted, about 25 minutes.